Just another Friday night

Just another Friday night and nothing to do. Sitting here alone with nothing to watch on television. I've never just written my thoughts and feelings on here but thought tonight why not!

I have had a really good week, finished a baby quilt for our friend Jeanie's new granddaughter Reesa, and started putting together a quilt of mine that I went to a class before Christmas and just hadn't had time to get back too. It is called a Jelly Bargelly quilt, I'm making it in browns, golds, greens and oranges, hummmm wonder who that would be for? I've wanted to do a quilt in this pattern for a long time but just didn't know how. Now I do and I love it. Can't wait to find me a pattern for a king size one for my bed. Like I said I've had a good week, my Fibro didn't raise it's ugly head until today and I haven't felt like doing anything today. I hurt so bad this morning that I stayed in my recliner until about 1. There is something about it that puts the pressure points of my body in positions that stops the pain. But afterwards I'm usually drained, even though I'm still awake and it is 12:30 (another wonderful side affect of Fibro) can't go to asleep again. Night before last it was 3:30, last night it was 3. When I can go to sleep and get some rest I do so much better. Anyone that has or knows anything about this d. disease knows that is does such strange things to you. I no long have the ability to do what I would love to do. On weekends my family gets out and works on the farm and I used to be right with them, well now I can't do that and at times I really fight those feelings. I get mad, jealous, sad you name it I feel it at some time. I can't even do my house work like I used too, my back hurts when I do anything where I have to use my arms and I'm standing, it is all I can do some days to change the bed. I would love to have a nice clean house again but that is a thing of the past and I'm trying to accept it. I hoping that maybe when it warms up a little I can take one room at a time and give them a good cleaning. I get so embarrassed when someone comes and sees my house. I can sew, my sweet daughter got me a really good chair for Christmas, but I still have to take breaks ever so often and just walk around.

Well that is about all that is on my mind tonight. Can you tell I'm just a little bit down in the dumps? But I will be alright when I'm not hurting.